Spending a Day with My Self!

Everyday... Our lives seems to be so busy! Minsan we tend to forget about ourselves and always think about the others... Not Bad! If you will think about it, hindi naman masamang mag-isip ng para sa iba...

However, it's also healthy to think about ourselves! Before you can love anyone or anybody else, we should learn how to appreciate ang sarili natin... Hindi naman masamang minsan sa isang linggo we give ourselves a break out of our hectic and tiring work activities! Kaya eto, I just wanna share with you what happened today...

First Stop!

- Trinoma Medical City (Physical Therapy Rehabilitation)
as you can see... may mga cables na nakakabit sa mga tuhod ko... That's the machine to stimulate the nerves and cells to make sure that blood flows smoothly sa area na sumasakit... by the way, I'm under treatment for my Quadriceps Tendinitis and Plasma fasis. A condition wherein the tendons are overused and if not treated will build up scar muscles and might lead to surgery causing the patient to use crutches! Grrrr... katakot! This is my 7th theraphy session going to 12...Thanks to my therapist "Mhei" of Medical City for taking care of me and to Dr. Ferdinand Decena for making sure that this will be cured. This has been a big problem for me lalo na pag nasa work ako... Remember if you're a Team Leader you always have to look after your agents and sad to say this condition hinders me to perform well... God will always make his way for me...

Second Stop!

- Trinoma Starbucks!
Time to relax after a soothing therapy session with Mocca Frap of Starbucks! Whew! It's nice to note na minsan talagang kape na lang ang sandalan ko pag may problema. This makes me feel na parang bestfriend ko sya. Kahit walang kausap I can feel na may karamay ako sa bitterness ng life! Though I have a lot of expenses to think of, I know for sure na kaya ko yun at hindi sagabal ang pagtreat sa sarili ng starbucks at least once a week! hahaha!!!

Third Stop!

- Pet Shop! (for my Aquarium)
There you go! Ang cute cute na ng aquarium ko with my kois and shark fish... I consider them as my babies so I bought them a new side filter para lagi silang clean and a splitter to make sure that the gravel filter and the side filter will have equal amount of oxygen pump para lalong mas enjoy ang mga fish ko sa paglangoy! My white koi is getting bigger nah! Can't wait to see all of them grow and stay with me....



It's refreshing to enjoy at least one day in a week all by myself! wahahaha!!! Loner yet happy!!

WHAT A DAY!!! OOOPS!!! Time to take my rest! :-) Still have a shift tonight at 11pm-8am. I hope something new and exciting will happen!

Waiting for the Payday!

Natawa na lang ako sa sarili ko ngayong araw na toh! Parang lumipas ang isang araw na walang nangyari... pahinga, net (Friendster, upload pics ng haus namin), chat (with my kapatids everywhere in the world)... kain (chicken nuggets and hotdog), hilata, nood TV (Ruffa and Ai and Game Ka na ba?), basa magazine(PC Buyer's Guide), kain ulit (tinapay with Chezee and Sprite) at eto computer ulit!

Walang kakwenta-kwentang araw! (E bakit? Bakit di ako lumabas? bakit di ako naglakwatsa? Nanood movie o nag-Starbucks man lang or Coffee Bean? o kaya nag-window shopping?) Ah ewan! Basta ang alam ko wala akong pera at naghihintay ako ng SWELDO!!! wahahaha!!!

Sabayan pa raw ng nananakit kong tuhod (Quadriceps Tendinitis at Plasma Fasis! NOSEBLEED ka noh?!!!) at napakainit na panahon e di syempre no choice and katoto nyo kundi ang tumengga sa bahay! Hahaha!! Nakakatawa... but I just can't imagine my self wasting my time doing all these crazy stuff! Parang bumalik ako sa Katamaran days ko nung College! (as if naman may time na masipag ako nun?! Baka tamaan ako ng kidlat!) hahaha!!

Pero alam nyo ang sarap rin pala ng feeling na ganito... yung tipong you don't care of what's happening outside! Di ko naman sinasabing I'm encouraging yo na maging tamad FOREVER! But you know what, parang habang nangyayari tong mga bagay na sinabi ko kanina... natagpuan ko and PEACE OF MIND... Ahhh...ewan! Basta yun yung feeling! Wala kang iniisp kundi ang sarili mo at ang nagugutom mong sikmura! hahaha!!!

BASTA! Pag may time and space kayo... lalo na kung kayo lang ang tao sa house! Try nyo to... but don't force your self kc di kayo mag-eenjoy! Yung tipong pag naisipan at naramdaman nyo ang calling (may ganun) ng peace of mind maiisip nyo to.. Nakaka-RELAX... yet you get a chance to recharge your self for another challenging week! While waiting for the payday... hahaha!!!

Take it Easy

it's easy to say that I am okay... yet deep inside there's this what we call as yearning... I don't know what I am longing and looking for...

One day, I woke up with tears and looking for someone to talk to, someone to discuss everything that I am thinking of...someone who will understand and someone who will just simply listen and react about what I'm saying...

I miss my friends... I miss my family... I miss my "old" self! I miss everything that I am doing before... and I think I'm missing my life..

hope everything will turn out fine...

The Turning Point!

"I was never afraid of failure, for i would sooner fail than not be among the best." -John Keats

This is the most powerful quote I've ever read... Why this quote? Well gee, it tells me almost everything about what we call LIFE!

Never be afraid of failure. Everyday, we always ask ourselves some questions like "Will I win this battle or not?", "Where will this decision take me?", "Will I be noticed if I do this? or will I end up still being a loser?".... You don't mess up with the Zohan especially these days! Don't mess up with yourself!

Be Optimistic and never get tired of trying new things! Don't doubt your personal capabilities! And lastly, never ever think that you're a FAILURE! No one fails unless they give up, the BEST people have had experienced a lot of difficulties before they became one of the highly appreciated ones...

Thanks to John Keats! You've given my life more chances, for everytime that I'll stumble, for every wound i'll get, for every blood that will flow and for every tears that might fall... I will always keep on fighting... this time... FAILURE is not my game anymore... I'm done with it!

Let's all be stronger, braver and be always at our BEST! Godspeed everyone!

As time goes bye bye bye...

As time goes bye bye bye...

as time goes by... it's becoming easier for me to leave this country...

my mom seems to have a better life now (new house, no worries and healthy life)...

my sisters are on the right way of living with their own families...

my work has given me enough opportunities to be what i wanted to be...

and my lovelife seems to be a desert of lonesome stories...

THINK! it's about to move on, but still counting on things that might change my decision...

LONESOME and HOPING....

what if...

what if i wake up one day...realizing that you don't deserve my love...

that you don't deserve my sacrifices...that you don't deserve all my efforts

will you be there to hold me back? will you be there to say that "I need you" or

"Please don't go"...? or will you just let me go without any questions....?

say you love me... don't wait for me to say "I Love You" everytime... coz you'll

never know until when i can take everything... coz you'll never know until when i

can accept the fact that I'm just nothing to you....